Sad

Hey im here,
Been trying to figure out my life. Controlling my air and food and movement.
I am in pain all the time but cannot go to the Dr. I have been turned off to them. I will not be a stereotype that is on medication.
I do not have a support system for i am a pariah in my family. I am so sad most of the time, with bouts of angry. It makes me ugly.
All people see is a fat body but not the crippling ache in my bones and my heart. I stay inside most of the time and when i do go out its late at night so no one will see me.. much. Thank God for twentyfour hour Walmarts and taxies, Or else i would never go out.
sux to be me
feelin' sorry for myself,
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(¸.·´ (¸*´¨(♥ Terri